Reblogged from picsandquotes
3:33am baby, I’ve officially been up for 41 hours.. Fuck yeah, if I can just beat my record of 55 hours I’ll be the happiest girl in the world. I’ma shoot for 75 but we’ll see.. I’ll probably end up taking a nap with Jeff when he gets home from work but I’m gonna try to stay up as long as I can. Probably gonna smoke this cig and then watch the History Channel, or else play Mario Cart :) Other than me being completely unmotivated and unwilling to go to class every day, I have a GOOD ass life..straight up. No bills, just extra cash every week..I got my boy, and my best friend, and my family..That’s really all I need to be happy so I’m fucking ecstatic right now. Now if I could just quit being so damn stubborn and go to school like I’m suppose to I’d have it all. I think I seriously have an issue with people telling me what to do because my mom studied every move I made for four years straight and told me what I could and couldn’t do around the clock. When I go to class now, I feel like someone made me go cause I don’t wanna be there..and it puts me in a bad mood. I’m pretty sure if my mom would stay the hell outta my business instead of telling me every day that I need to go to class, I’d fucking go. I know she means well but god damn, I’m grown..I don’t need someone following me around letting me know every time I make a bad decision, because I already KNOW what kind of decision I’m making when I’m making it..I just don’t give a damn whether what I’m doing is right or wrong at this point. Pretty sure I’m rambling so I need to get off this thing before I think of something else to talk about for an hour.
Later yo..Wish ya’ll were on my level ;)
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Today was busy, to say the least. And while I wish not to post every single night at midnight, it’s really the only time I can set aside..so here I am. I woke up, went to McDonalds with my baby brother, and then went to school. Now, I had club pictures all day long so I wasn’t in class much.. and no, I wasn’t bothered by that at all.
So needless to say today was quite entertaining. After school I went to the softball meeting and then straight to Key Club. I signed up to be in the committee to raise money and have a “prom” at riley hospital for the terminally ill patients there. So I’m doing that, and the Pink Ribbon Runners in April for Breast Cancer Awareness month.
Then, of course my mom came home from Florida today so we all went out to dinner; Her, Greg, Jordan, and I.. We went to Texas Roadhouse and spent almost three hours there so we had a good time. And now I’m here..I swear sometimes, I’m like a slave to this thing. But I love it. I’m gonna look back on this one day and be so glad I did it. If only my journals I use to keep were still around. My mom burned them, lol. LAME. Good news? I’m going to see Brittany tomorrow. It sucks having an awesome best friend, because I really do just wanna be able to hang out with her all the time. It’s amazing that she understands what I’m doing with school and softball and everything..she really is the ideal best friend and I really couldn’t of met anyone better than her. Blahhh. I could go on and on. <3
Well, I’m off to bed. I didn’t do and am not planning on doing my precal homework. Tomorrow I have a vocab quiz first period in English, a tu command quiz in second period Spanish, a cosine quiz in third period precalculus, and a linguistics vocab test fourth period. Can’t wait! haha, kidding. Oh well, hopefully I’ll be able to maintain that 4.0 :D
I was told this quote today in Econ and it really kind of challenged me to do the same..
“I have learned to imagine an invisible sign around each person’s neck that says, ‘Make me feel important!”
YES, from now on I’m practicing this concept. I’m a people pleaser, for sure. And I love making people happy.
<3
So in Haiti yesterday, there was an earthquake of I believe a 7.5 magnitude. So I’ve been praying for the entire country. I think the death toll is expected to reach hundreds of thousands. :/
Anyways. Today has been pretty dang good. It started off to be a really bad day, but after I found the twenty dollars in my precal book my day took a turn for the better. :] I aced my Psych test and got taco bell after school. :] My boyfriend had “priorities” today, not one of them being me..so I’m gonna go over there tomorrow :D
Today was Jessica’s showing, and I regrettably wasn’t able to go. New Castle is an hour and a half away, and I would of driven it in a heart beat for a good friend, but my mom is in FL so she would have been STRESSED haha. I wasn’t her best friend or anything of the sort, however she was someone that I saw every single day for an entire school year. I lived right down the hall from her and had to walk past her room every day after class. Goodness, it seems crazy to think that three of my friends have passed away in the past year. :’[ I don’t think my heart could take much more..
There are 44 days until my birthday, 43 in a little over an hour! I’m getting really excited about becoming an adult. Everyone tells me I won’t like it, but the thought of having my own bills and other things to pay excites me. haha. I love independence! :D
Oh yes, and btw..I have straight A’s right now, nothing under a 90% in all of my classes. It feels great to be intelligent..and to have the ability to use it in the future is also incredible! I can’t wait for graduation so I can move onto my six years of college. lol
Well, I have BPA, Student Council, and Key Club pictures tomorrow morning. AND a softball callout meeting after school. So, until tomorrow evening, I’m out.
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RIP Jerrod Andrew, Donovan Black, & Jessica Lynn.
There’s no way to even BEGIN to explain how much we all miss you. <3
So, it’s actually a decent hour this time.. I posted at around 3am to my private blog this morning due to insomnia and such. It was some pretty deep stuff or else I’d post it to my public, but some things aren’t meant to be read, you know? I am completely exhausted, and may actually end up falling asleep before I reach the end of my post..yet I’m still typing away. This space is untouchable, what you say and what you are feeling has no limit. That’s why I love it! :]
My mom left for Orlando this morning, and should be back around noon Thursday afternoon. This means that my sister will be “house sitting”. Blahhh. I’m 17 years old and need a house sitter, that’s crazy talk. Oh well, I can say that the first night has been a success so far. For now, I’m going to be getting off here for that quick “power nap”…
haha. I have been awake for a little over 34 hours so I ALMOST made it to my 48 hours of reflection..oh well. Maybe I’ll save the 48 hours for my weekly Wednesday fast. :D
I’ll be back here later, with a post three times as long as this. And it’ll have some meaning.
:D
Check out my quotes or something while you’re waiting?
